I find myself thinking and saying "that's a waste of time" a lot lately. I feel greedy with my time. Does this stem from me having a small finite amount of time left to live. I feel like I want to do only things I enjoy. Of course there are things I have no choice about they have to be done, like grocery shop, pay bills, medical stuff etc. The truth is many times I have nothing better to do. I'd say 95% of my week I live within the walls of my home. I physically can't do the things I did even a year ago. My walking is painful and very slow. I rarely even go to a grocery store anymore I order everything online now. Most times I'm not even interested in going "out to eat," however I will attempt it occasionally. I don't visit family or friends I'm more comfortable being in my own home close to my Advil, my heating pad, and my bed.
My only enjoyment right now is tending to my seedlings and chatting on SOC. I'm planning on planting my seedlings outside myself. If I have to sit in the chair to do it I will. My wife thinks I'm taking on too much, we'll see.
I got a new pair of glasses about 6 months ago, but my eyes when I'm reading are at times are blurry. It's possible it's the results of the radiation treatment. I use my cell phone when I'm online with SOC, many times I have to squint or continuously blink to read the post, I cannot get through as many post as I would like to. I feel like my comprehension is going down.
I would like to learn how to add the smiley faces when I reply to a post with a thumbs up.