Last night I dreamed I was starting to forget things and the dream ended with a very real possibility that I was developing Alzheimer's ( I hope this is the correct spelling). The dream was so real. I was the same age I am now and living in the home we are in now. It was like I was going through a regular day in my life. I didn't feel panic in my dream at this happening to me, but I did feel a sadness come over me. I woke up from the dream and could still feel the sadness and after making a pit stop in the bathroom I went back to sleep and then went into a continuation of that same dream. In the dream I was never diagnosed with this disease but somehow it was made very clear that this is what I was facing. When I finally woke up for good I thought about my dream and feel that it may be a foreshadowing of things to come for me. And the thought of this happening does sadden me...and yet I know even this happens I will not be walking alone through this.
I told my daughter about my dream today while I was helping her prepare her home for the arrival of our new grandbaby. And I told if this is a foreshadowing of what is to come in my life to remember to "dope" me up good if I got crazy. Two of my daughters have careers in the medical field so I know they understand that I just want to stay calm no matter what I go through health wise. I've had to much craziness from other people and things in my life time and just want peaceful the majority of the time now. And I don't want to be a burden to my children either...but I didn't think of them as burdens when I was raising them through the good times and bad and I pray my children won't think of me that way either if one day I need them to help me to the "finish line" of my earthly life.