At times, I still wonder what I exist for. After 69 years, you should think I would have a clue, but I really don't. Some people think that we are here to use the special gift that they say God or a higher power has given us but I am not sure of that. My Buddhist training says that I am here only to learn and try to even out the karma, positive or negative, that I earned in past lives. For example, if somebody decides to punch me in the nose, perhaps I punched him in a past life and now we are even. It seems as if Karma can be painful as well as pleasant. There are other thoughts of our existence and hopefully one or two of you will let me know what you think. I have talked to some people and they seem to believe that when this life ends, "Bingo", that is it. No more, no less. I can't buy into that thought process as there are too many instances of incarnations that I feel are valid. Some Christians feel as if they will join with God and have a glorious life in heaven, but some of these same people have a great fear of death. Even when a loved one dies they weep and are sad. But in reality, if death will bring you into a place of holiness and non-pain, mental as well as physical, why be upset when somebody gets to go early? I suppose there are many different viewpoints and I suppose that we all think we are correct, but of course, we won't really know until that time comes. Most of my family live on into their nineties and are for the most part still mentally alert. So if I follow suit I guess I still have about 20 years left to figure out why I exist.